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judo2004
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Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 5/16/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: hmm..dancing, singing, chillin wit ppo..
Expertise: u tell me...
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
12/5/2002
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| my parents are right...
i am more bitter these days...
i am angry...
for alot of things...
i dont know how some people are still so ...
or maybe i've just changed...
i cant wait for vacay...i just wanna get away...fly away...and never come back...
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| so...why is it that i still feel like im in middle school...
why is so much sometimes so not enough?
is it me? maybe its really just not meant to be...
when do u stop and just say that its not meant to be...
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| when...is it time to quit?
just keep on swimming...dont stop..
i ran a 5k...and i was talking to my boss about how i was concerned that i wouldnt finish or that i'd be the last one to finish...she said..just keep going..whatever you do, dont stop and dont quit.
how done should you be before you decide to let it go?
how long does it take for people to forget?
how come it takes so long for people to grow up?
im so ready to be done...so ready for people to grow up...
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| im sitting here...trying to think of something...wishing i was elsewhere...so unsatisfied.
i cant stop crying.
sometimes i wish i was back in high school.
so broken.
i wish i had a family at towson like i do at duquesne.
i wish i wasnt the person i am.
i wish i was different.
i wish i still had my passion.
i wish...
[edit.4.22.07]
this morning...i remembered what it felt like to have that security again.
im crying out...
its our confession Lord...that we are weak, so very weak,...but You are strong.
and though we've nothing Lord, to lay at your feet...we come to Your feet and say help us along.
a broken heart and a contrite spirit, You have yet to deny...
Your heart of mercy meets with love strong courage...let the river flow, by Your spirit now, Lord we cry...
its been a long time.
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| its been a long time since i've sat here and posted. i've never been the kinda person to post on here about my personal life. spring break was this past week and altho i rested, i feel like i didnt. i went up to pgh and saw some of my favorite people. came down, and hung out with good ol MDers. then i went to NY to play with my bff. we talked alot...alot about relationships, life, regrets.
my motto has always been live life with no regrets. too many young people have died that i've realized that life is too short. u cant live life wondering what ifs. living thinking about the past and what could have/would have been is just too hard. you'd be missing out on the present. i've been good at it...so far. i can say that i have no regrets. but i've had trouble with the what ifs/ the could have/would have beens...
im happy...i really am...i just feel like lifes taking me by a storm...no time to sit back and really revel in my happiness...no time to sit back and appreciate. i've learned alot in th epast couple of years...about what i want, what i cant tolerate...and i feel like i've grown. i want so much to be able to just stop time...for just a little bit...and sit. i loved snow days...the beauty outside...warmth inside...sitting back and just being. at home, i loved going to needwood park and just sitting or just walking around the lake. i havent done that since high school. we just all got so busy with school, relationships, work, etc.
someone once told me that u gotta live life to the fullest, but is it wrong that i just want to sit...and be?
i keep hearing the words "i'll be different when i get outta college" or "i'll be different when i have a job"...but it makes me wonder why people cant be different now. if they really will be different when they have a job or when their outta college, then why cant they change themselves now? it always makes me wonder whether or not they will change.
i had a convo with someone the other day about how do u know if the person ur with is the right person for you. how do you know. how do u know if your settling? how do u ever know if your settling? like...a job, or grades, or a bf, or gf, or a husband/wife...why do people settle to begin with? why cant everyone strive for the best, the best for them? the perfect fit...is there such a thing?
just some thoughts...
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